Let it hurt☄️

I always wonder, Am I doing good?

I know I did my best,but I don't get

Why people want me to do more and more?

I'm human,and I too feel like dying inside,

Everytime someone says you are not doing good 

Eventhoigh I put my damn mind and heart to it,

So what if No one believes that I'm working hard?

Will I find myself when people forgot to rescue,

Tears are unstoppable,my soul is uncomparable;

I'm trying is the answer everyone have,

It's loss or win but I tossed the coin,

And the coin doesn't know the history it makes,

Those seconds before reaching the hands,

The confidence and hope broke fully,never fix

Oh no,how will I motivate myself to cheer me up,

Inch by inch I struggle to heal and it got wrecked;

And I think I'm not build with skin,it's steel;

Even now why I can't hurt anyone with just words?

Am I that useless,thinking this I can't sleep at all;

Why are people jealous,I have nothing yar!

Be polite and earn the respect,once gone,gone;

Even I can't make myself feel loved once again;

I'm tired of being scared,what about my prayers?

Why I am being in same scene again and again,

Why can't I able to find the answer?

Why am I unlucky in figuring this and that,

"This is not enough" is what I'm hearing;

I want to leave everything and go to southkorea;

Why I am this poor,even train ticket at month end

Is a big thing,Why I reached this phase of my life?

Dear money,please come I'm in love with you,

I will spent you in good hands,good food;

Umbrellas on daylight,socks on rain;flipflop on Winter,Warm dress autumn is as useless as me;

Will the hurt,hurts the hurting and let the hurt get Hurt and see how it hurts to being hurt by hurt?