It's fall season, I don't fell🍂

Every month  will teach,you are worth liv'ing love;

All these things that hurted me finally left,right?

Justified January,oathful october originated,

Those jumping emotions and uncertainty things,

Made this year extra super strong me,satisfyingly;

Knowing everyone and everything, I grew kind;

Longing for untold confessions,unlovable soul,

Icing on the breezeway walk,my toes felt its way;

I wrote many things,unwritten and draft loved me,

Yeah,I traveled alone,ate alone,and left all alone.

I tasted the citrus fruits of pulp,strangely golden ;

All too well by taylor swift,My handwritten diary!

Bitten by punishment Nope, saved from disaster?

Let me choose no one,cause I got no one honey!

Shades of mystery became solvable acceptance,

Prophecy? But I felt deja vu in my own lifetime.

Am I allowed to pass the exam, haunting a while.

I'm holy,they hit me anyway like it's not a sin.

Threaded worries are making me burying alive;

Accused or cursed,Not fitted for filthy friendship. 

Standing,but running laps of different me in head;

Why am I unlucky in picking lucky,mindblind?

Even I don't like the ending,I watch it to let end,

Just to keep me up straight,saying I'm literally ok,

I just wanna make myself feel home,because 

My home is far away and I'm long distancing.

Will anyone heal me,the world maimed me so bad;

Those bruises making me to not believe anyone,

Anymore at any cost and for absolutely nothing.

Prayers helping me to move the day,god cheat?

All my letters are started to speak to me,loudly.

Killing those harmful echoes that tortures me;

Every midnight,I am both lil softy and girl boss.

Plotting my own life,this and that means a lot.

Excusing everyone because they got life,me too ?

Oh hell,to people who don't understands me;

To be live in my world is something you don't get.

Let this October give Sparkling light to my dark.